Originally published at https://www.postwrestling.com/2022/10/06/hyper-misao-opens-up-about-past-suicide-attempt/
Hyper Misao speaks candidly.
On October 9th, Tokyo Joshi Pro Wrestling is presenting the third installment of their Wrestle Princess event. On that card, Hyper Misao will be in singles action against Mizuki.
Ahead of the bout, ‘web Sportiva’ published a lengthy feature about Hyper Misao’s life and how she got into pro wrestling. There was a portion of the article where Misao opened up about her suicide attempt. Misao felt there was a gap between her and others early in life as she was entering high school when she had to write about future goals.
While people expressed their desires to be doctors and lawyers, she wanted to be an artist. She was bullied in school and took a break for a while. Misao stated that she put on her ‘nonchalant face’ and moved forward but she put on the ‘nonchalant face’ for everything. She kept her art-related dreams to herself and kept a low-profile in junior high and high school.
She expressed that she had been living her life according to the choices of those around her. She eventually went to university without the inner desire of wanting to go.
Everyone around me seemed to have entered this university because they liked it, and while everyone else was enjoying their sparkling university life, I was at rock bottom.
She eventually stopped going to school but her parents forced her to stay enrolled. She cut ties with friends and only went to school for the credits. When she discovered poetry, that was a ‘salvation’ for her as it was described in the article. The poems she focused on were about loneliness and alienation.
Many of the poems were about loneliness, alienation and a sense of discomfort with the world, and I felt as if the writer was describing my own state of mind at the time.
She began to dive deeper into writing and her work was published in a magazine. Later, there was a once again a breakdown in communication with her parents which added to Misao feeling like she was tired of making choices on top of having trouble finding work.
Misao was walking down the Aoyama Cemetery in Tokyo and swallowed pills she carried in a bag with alcohol. Misao passed out and the next morning, a pedestrian found her and took her to the hospital.
I left the emergency ward with a battered face, in diapers and in a wheelchair, but my life was not in danger. I must have had a lot of vitality. I lived my life saying, ‘I want to die, I want to die,’ but I have so much vitality. That’s probably why I became a professional wrestler. I’m very strong.
Misao stayed in school for another year and graduated but did not have the energy to look for a job.
I had caused trouble for my parents by attempting suicide, so I went back to thinking, I have to live within the framework of my life. I despaired that from now on, I would have to live as if I were dead, so as not to die.
In part two of the write-up, it is noted that one day, Misao’s mother asked her to go to a festival and it was there that she discovered pro wrestling. She went on to apply to become a trainee for TJPW and knew she would be able to survive if she could make money from it.
I can survive if I can earn any kind of money. ‘If I don’t do anything at this point, I probably won’t be able to do anything. Even if I do something else in the future, I can’t take the next step without wrestling in between.’ My life up to that point had been like choosing from a menu at a family restaurant, but after I met pro wrestling, I was like, I want to eat chateaubriand, so bring it out! I want some chateaubriand! (Laughs). It was the first choice I made without being influenced by anyone else.
POST Wrestling’s Karen Peterson will be recapping Wrestle Princess III in her ‘Dream Slam Weekly’.